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THE JOURNEY
of how far we came, in words of mine.

It was all in His plans for me to study in Sydney. Now that I'm here, it's up to me to shine His light.

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FLY AWAY TO SYD
on the journey to Sydney.

4 years in Sydney is an awefully long time.
Catch me before I fly away, cause I'm having the time of my life.
Friends come and go, but the close ones never part irregardless of the distance.

Sunday, June 29, 2008

02:12

You threw me off guard.
You made me question if I've done enough for you as a friend.
Whether my way of dealing with friends has been wrong.
Friends tell me its okay.
That I didn't do anything wong; It was just a miscommunication.
But I still don't feel good.
I'm not at ease.
What must I do to make it up?
What can I do to salvage the situation?

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

12:47

My Birthday present from my mother, via email!
Haha

01:19

I've dedicated my first one hour of my birthday to the One who knows me best. And I thanked Him for being there for me every time. Without Him, I would have crumbled a long time ago. I am where I am now, because of Him.

Thank you. Thank you.

-

And so, its my birthday. TWENTIETH. And I have no idea what to wish for before I blow out the birthday candle (that's if I even have one).

IS THERE ANY REGULATION THAT I CAN ONLY MAKE ONE WISH?

What should I wish for?
I don't even know....

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

00:54

I'm FUCKED

I forgot that 23rd June is my mother's birthday! And she had to msg me to remind me after my 12am. SHUCKS. So bad. Such an unfilial daughter. I just never occurred to me that yesterday was my mother's birthday. I remembered to buy her a present. But I didn't remember the date. All I knew was that my birthday is in 2 days. That's all!
:( :( :(

-

AFTER EXAMS

Been playing a lot! Schedule's going to be packed for the next few weeks. Which means more money spent! Started to stream hk dramas again. Hooked on WOIL2 now. SO BAD. My internet plan will be slow after 2 and a half weeks.

Walked out of my exam hall 1h and 10min early on Saturday. Went home to relax. Then met Jerm, Ted, Gordon & Char in the city. Stepping back into civilization again felt weird. It took me some time to get used to it. And to get my clothes selection right. Haha. You don't want to know how dodgy I'm dressed during exams.

We finally decided on some Ice Cube takeaways & some Ice-Cream. Headed to Lizard Bar for some live band and a bit of drinks before going to sing K. Had an awesome time there. Sang till my throat was hoarse. Headed to Mamak for prata and murtabaks before heading home!

3am. That's the time I reached home.

SUNDAY

Amazingly, I woke up for Badminton. Granted I was late. Came out of training with muscle aches. SO TIRED. Bathed and then went for Church 45min late. And for the remaining 45min of service, I was dozing off. Terrible. I hope my Father forgives me. :/

After service, Cheryl and I proceeded with our cake and drinks hunt. We settled for The Meat & Wine Co. at Darling Harbour. Ordered the Chicken Stewers & Kangaroo. Fantastic. The Creme Brulee was good too. haha. Good company, Good drinks, Good food - What more can you ask for?

1am. That's the time I reached home.

MONDAY

Went to the city with Char for our haircut. Have a new hair style now. Short fringe, mid length hair. Layered, & thinned. I don't think I can tie my hair up in the near future! Eeks. I wanted something different, and I got it.

Met up with Erica, Grace, Martin, Maria, Ray & Daniel. Had Italian food at World Square. Nice fine, sensual dining. :) Headed to Pancakes for dessert. Funny jokes & great entertainment throughout the night. Love it. They got me a present too! A Nike bag for exercising and Badminton! Woohoo.

-

Will update more soon!

Saturday, June 21, 2008

11:41

I'm free!!

Done with exams.

:D

Friday, June 20, 2008

14:57

I can only console myself with the fact that I'll be able to get my proper sleep in 21hours. For the next 21hours, I'll have to battle fatigue, frustration, and a 3 hr long exam paper which determines everything.

I need my brain to think mathematically and critically for the next 21 hours. And its refusing to do so! f.

And, I watched Euro last night. Couldn't resist the temptation. Ha.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

17:10

I stand by what I said.
WHO THE HELL TAKES ACCOUNTING AS A MAJOR?

Yes, I'm one of those idiots who is regretting it immensely now.

The lecturers are not making it any easier by setting the exam standard so high. Not only that, the paper CANNOT be completed in 2 hrs. Brainless, senseless lecturers. I hope they all DIE.

hmpfs.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

00:48

5 days to freedom.
5 days to a day of sleep-in.
5 days to good food.

5 days.

Hopefully I'm still alive after that.
:/

Friday, June 13, 2008

23:16

The various things I do when I'm stressed.

~~1. Study as hard as I can~~
1. Wake up really late.
2. Have a heavy breakfast at Tradewinds, while reading gossip magazines.
3. Return home at 1ish to take a short nap.
4. Chat on Msn before deciding that the best place to study is on my bed, away from my laptop.
5. Go to the gym at 530pm.
6. Return from the gym, showered, and prepared for dinner.
7. Ate a tad too much for dinner, resulting in me refusing to do work.
8. Watched 27 Dresses, the movie.
9. Continued to chat on Msn.

Dang.
Here I am. Ready to start my day's work. And the time reads 11.23pm.

Am I really stressed?
YESSS.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

13:21

I am my Mother's biggest investment. That's what she said to me. So I am not supposed to get into any other trouble or accident.

Investment?

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

22:42

Looks like I won't be getting out of my cave anytime soon. :(
I think I have to cancel my SATC date with Char tmrr.

Been going to the gym to exercise for about 30min each day. It's like my getaway from studying and a change of environment. Haha. My only form of change in environment! Pathetic. And I really want to be fit again!

Can't wait for sunday. My day of liberation when I get on the bus, and out of Maroubra. As usual, Church = Civilisation. :D

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

01:14

`hopeful is not so hopeful anymore. Optimism is good, it gives you blind faith.

Am I being to ambitious in attempting to complete 18.5 Chapters of work in 2 days before I start on my practise papers?

It's all Sunday's fault to blame for me rushing like mad now.
:(

Or was it my poor sleeping habits?

`hopefully

-

Sunday was the first day I entered civilisation since I started hiding in my hole. For 5 days, I was cooping at home, mugging. Going to Church brought me back into civilisation. I almost forgot how to use a TravelTen!

Church = Civilisation

Haha.

-

Yanho, thank you for being so concerned for me. Study Hard, dude!

Saturday, June 07, 2008

02:25

Tears welling up

Even though we do not talk often, even though we fight and quarrel more than we talk, you are still my brother. A true older brother that provides me with shelter and protection whenever I need it; with guidance when I'm lost. We may not communicate, but we understand each other. It's because of the same blood that is flowing within us. It gives us this link. No one can separate us. I finally understood the meaning of family ties. Thank You. Thank You.

Friday, June 06, 2008

16:13

Boredom

I'm so bored and I refused to study. Haha. Took the FB Test: What does your Birth date mean?

About me:
A geek from the word go, you are brilliant at all the difficult and tech stuff. You excel at anything techy. It's sometimes difficult for you to find a company of people worth spending time with. Which is probably why you have planned to take over the world with your self made robots!

Greatest Strength:
Your unfailing logic

Greatest Weakness:
Loving machines more than people

-

Haha. Quite true. Okay... And there I go, back to my lecture notes. :/

14:41

Neat and Tidy are words not found in my dictionary.

Convo with my best friend.

yp: you may not need welfare for food, but your room needs a bit of welfare.
me: in syd or sg?
yp: sg. messy!!!

yp: can u be neater for once?
me: define neater..
yp: neater as in, if i want to sit on ur bed, i dun have to remove the pile of clothes in order to see the bedsheet.
me: if anything, my bed in sydney is considered very neat.. by ur standards

Okay, after waiting 3 hrs streaming NBA Finals, I should get back to studying. Supposed to finish 10 Chapters today.

Shen Ah, Jiu Jiu Wo Ba!
haha.

Thursday, June 05, 2008

21:51

Came across this post about no one remembering the losers except the losers themselves.

I remembered Erica telling me about how she chopped off her long hair after losing the 2003 Finals to TK. And how she didn't know what she was doing when we lost our final game together in the 2004 Finals. Neither did I. We may have won as a team, but the both of us lost as individuals.

You may have won before, but its the losses that you remember. I may not remember my championship winning moment, but the taste of loss still lingers.

You think about it and question yourself. Why didn't I grab hold of that opportunity? So close on many occasions, and yet, all I'm left with is Regrets.

My finals record stands at 1-4. I may have won before, but there are so many other opportunities which I have missed out on.

Loser?

-

Apparently, I'm really bored and I absolutely do not want to study. That's why I've been blogging non-stop.

Argh.

20:24

Taken from Joy's 365 Days of Hope.

June 5
Be like the bird that, halting on its flight awhile on boughs too slight, feels them give way beneath her, and yet sings knowing that she hath wings. -Victor Hugo

June 25
Today Jesus is working just as wonderful works as when He created the heaven and the earth. His wondrous grace, His wonderful omnipotence, is for His child who needs Him and who trusts Him, even today. -Charles E. Hurlburt & T.C. Horton

Really, how apt!

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

20:54

I'm sad to annouce my failure to go for all 12 hrs of class this week. Miss my 9am accounting lecture this morning. Woke up at 840am, knowing it'll be too late. :(

20:08

Animosities and misunderstandings are not the way to get things done.

Why all the small talks?

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

04:12

Trying period; burning questions; unanswered

I admit I haven't been living for myself.
What does it mean to be living for one's self?

01:37

As always, easy mac to the rescue.

Unattainable goals = Less Motivation = Lousy Grades.

Applying Accounting Concepts.
I need my 'Tunnel Vision'.

I'm in a very cranky mood these days. SO pardon me if I do anything silly in front of you.

Monday, June 02, 2008

18:53

My aim for this week:
To go for all 12 hours of school and push up my AHOS (Average Hours Of School) !
Haha.
So far, I've completed 4 out of the 12 hrs. I've got 2 days to complete the other 8 hrs!

For the first time today, I met Yuan at the bus stop!
Eggciting.

Sunday, June 01, 2008

18:54

Read between the lines, like that, you might be closer to figuring out my thoughts.

Sometimes, I may appear as though I'm hiding something from everyone. Truth is, I'm not. I just do not share my views. Silence is a virtue, and suffering in silence is a part-and-parcel of life.

That's what I've learnt.

So why be depressed over it when dawn is just around the corner?

Wait and be patient, for you'll definitely be rewarded for that silence.

02:05

We all subscribe to different theories in life. At the end of the day, you have to respect the different theories your friends subscribe to, and not force your opinion on them.

Respect, Accomodate, Support.
That's how you're meant to be as friends.

Sunday, June 29, 2008

02:12

You threw me off guard.
You made me question if I've done enough for you as a friend.
Whether my way of dealing with friends has been wrong.
Friends tell me its okay.
That I didn't do anything wong; It was just a miscommunication.
But I still don't feel good.
I'm not at ease.
What must I do to make it up?
What can I do to salvage the situation?

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

12:47

My Birthday present from my mother, via email!
Haha

01:19

I've dedicated my first one hour of my birthday to the One who knows me best. And I thanked Him for being there for me every time. Without Him, I would have crumbled a long time ago. I am where I am now, because of Him.

Thank you. Thank you.

-

And so, its my birthday. TWENTIETH. And I have no idea what to wish for before I blow out the birthday candle (that's if I even have one).

IS THERE ANY REGULATION THAT I CAN ONLY MAKE ONE WISH?

What should I wish for?
I don't even know....

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

00:54

I'm FUCKED

I forgot that 23rd June is my mother's birthday! And she had to msg me to remind me after my 12am. SHUCKS. So bad. Such an unfilial daughter. I just never occurred to me that yesterday was my mother's birthday. I remembered to buy her a present. But I didn't remember the date. All I knew was that my birthday is in 2 days. That's all!
:( :( :(

-

AFTER EXAMS

Been playing a lot! Schedule's going to be packed for the next few weeks. Which means more money spent! Started to stream hk dramas again. Hooked on WOIL2 now. SO BAD. My internet plan will be slow after 2 and a half weeks.

Walked out of my exam hall 1h and 10min early on Saturday. Went home to relax. Then met Jerm, Ted, Gordon & Char in the city. Stepping back into civilization again felt weird. It took me some time to get used to it. And to get my clothes selection right. Haha. You don't want to know how dodgy I'm dressed during exams.

We finally decided on some Ice Cube takeaways & some Ice-Cream. Headed to Lizard Bar for some live band and a bit of drinks before going to sing K. Had an awesome time there. Sang till my throat was hoarse. Headed to Mamak for prata and murtabaks before heading home!

3am. That's the time I reached home.

SUNDAY

Amazingly, I woke up for Badminton. Granted I was late. Came out of training with muscle aches. SO TIRED. Bathed and then went for Church 45min late. And for the remaining 45min of service, I was dozing off. Terrible. I hope my Father forgives me. :/

After service, Cheryl and I proceeded with our cake and drinks hunt. We settled for The Meat & Wine Co. at Darling Harbour. Ordered the Chicken Stewers & Kangaroo. Fantastic. The Creme Brulee was good too. haha. Good company, Good drinks, Good food - What more can you ask for?

1am. That's the time I reached home.

MONDAY

Went to the city with Char for our haircut. Have a new hair style now. Short fringe, mid length hair. Layered, & thinned. I don't think I can tie my hair up in the near future! Eeks. I wanted something different, and I got it.

Met up with Erica, Grace, Martin, Maria, Ray & Daniel. Had Italian food at World Square. Nice fine, sensual dining. :) Headed to Pancakes for dessert. Funny jokes & great entertainment throughout the night. Love it. They got me a present too! A Nike bag for exercising and Badminton! Woohoo.

-

Will update more soon!

Saturday, June 21, 2008

11:41

I'm free!!

Done with exams.

:D

Friday, June 20, 2008

14:57

I can only console myself with the fact that I'll be able to get my proper sleep in 21hours. For the next 21hours, I'll have to battle fatigue, frustration, and a 3 hr long exam paper which determines everything.

I need my brain to think mathematically and critically for the next 21 hours. And its refusing to do so! f.

And, I watched Euro last night. Couldn't resist the temptation. Ha.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

17:10

I stand by what I said.
WHO THE HELL TAKES ACCOUNTING AS A MAJOR?

Yes, I'm one of those idiots who is regretting it immensely now.

The lecturers are not making it any easier by setting the exam standard so high. Not only that, the paper CANNOT be completed in 2 hrs. Brainless, senseless lecturers. I hope they all DIE.

hmpfs.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

00:48

5 days to freedom.
5 days to a day of sleep-in.
5 days to good food.

5 days.

Hopefully I'm still alive after that.
:/

Friday, June 13, 2008

23:16

The various things I do when I'm stressed.

~~1. Study as hard as I can~~
1. Wake up really late.
2. Have a heavy breakfast at Tradewinds, while reading gossip magazines.
3. Return home at 1ish to take a short nap.
4. Chat on Msn before deciding that the best place to study is on my bed, away from my laptop.
5. Go to the gym at 530pm.
6. Return from the gym, showered, and prepared for dinner.
7. Ate a tad too much for dinner, resulting in me refusing to do work.
8. Watched 27 Dresses, the movie.
9. Continued to chat on Msn.

Dang.
Here I am. Ready to start my day's work. And the time reads 11.23pm.

Am I really stressed?
YESSS.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

13:21

I am my Mother's biggest investment. That's what she said to me. So I am not supposed to get into any other trouble or accident.

Investment?

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

22:42

Looks like I won't be getting out of my cave anytime soon. :(
I think I have to cancel my SATC date with Char tmrr.

Been going to the gym to exercise for about 30min each day. It's like my getaway from studying and a change of environment. Haha. My only form of change in environment! Pathetic. And I really want to be fit again!

Can't wait for sunday. My day of liberation when I get on the bus, and out of Maroubra. As usual, Church = Civilisation. :D

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

01:14

`hopeful is not so hopeful anymore. Optimism is good, it gives you blind faith.

Am I being to ambitious in attempting to complete 18.5 Chapters of work in 2 days before I start on my practise papers?

It's all Sunday's fault to blame for me rushing like mad now.
:(

Or was it my poor sleeping habits?

`hopefully

-

Sunday was the first day I entered civilisation since I started hiding in my hole. For 5 days, I was cooping at home, mugging. Going to Church brought me back into civilisation. I almost forgot how to use a TravelTen!

Church = Civilisation

Haha.

-

Yanho, thank you for being so concerned for me. Study Hard, dude!

Saturday, June 07, 2008

02:25

Tears welling up

Even though we do not talk often, even though we fight and quarrel more than we talk, you are still my brother. A true older brother that provides me with shelter and protection whenever I need it; with guidance when I'm lost. We may not communicate, but we understand each other. It's because of the same blood that is flowing within us. It gives us this link. No one can separate us. I finally understood the meaning of family ties. Thank You. Thank You.

Friday, June 06, 2008

16:13

Boredom

I'm so bored and I refused to study. Haha. Took the FB Test: What does your Birth date mean?

About me:
A geek from the word go, you are brilliant at all the difficult and tech stuff. You excel at anything techy. It's sometimes difficult for you to find a company of people worth spending time with. Which is probably why you have planned to take over the world with your self made robots!

Greatest Strength:
Your unfailing logic

Greatest Weakness:
Loving machines more than people

-

Haha. Quite true. Okay... And there I go, back to my lecture notes. :/

14:41

Neat and Tidy are words not found in my dictionary.

Convo with my best friend.

yp: you may not need welfare for food, but your room needs a bit of welfare.
me: in syd or sg?
yp: sg. messy!!!

yp: can u be neater for once?
me: define neater..
yp: neater as in, if i want to sit on ur bed, i dun have to remove the pile of clothes in order to see the bedsheet.
me: if anything, my bed in sydney is considered very neat.. by ur standards

Okay, after waiting 3 hrs streaming NBA Finals, I should get back to studying. Supposed to finish 10 Chapters today.

Shen Ah, Jiu Jiu Wo Ba!
haha.

Thursday, June 05, 2008

21:51

Came across this post about no one remembering the losers except the losers themselves.

I remembered Erica telling me about how she chopped off her long hair after losing the 2003 Finals to TK. And how she didn't know what she was doing when we lost our final game together in the 2004 Finals. Neither did I. We may have won as a team, but the both of us lost as individuals.

You may have won before, but its the losses that you remember. I may not remember my championship winning moment, but the taste of loss still lingers.

You think about it and question yourself. Why didn't I grab hold of that opportunity? So close on many occasions, and yet, all I'm left with is Regrets.

My finals record stands at 1-4. I may have won before, but there are so many other opportunities which I have missed out on.

Loser?

-

Apparently, I'm really bored and I absolutely do not want to study. That's why I've been blogging non-stop.

Argh.

20:24

Taken from Joy's 365 Days of Hope.

June 5
Be like the bird that, halting on its flight awhile on boughs too slight, feels them give way beneath her, and yet sings knowing that she hath wings. -Victor Hugo

June 25
Today Jesus is working just as wonderful works as when He created the heaven and the earth. His wondrous grace, His wonderful omnipotence, is for His child who needs Him and who trusts Him, even today. -Charles E. Hurlburt & T.C. Horton

Really, how apt!

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

20:54

I'm sad to annouce my failure to go for all 12 hrs of class this week. Miss my 9am accounting lecture this morning. Woke up at 840am, knowing it'll be too late. :(

20:08

Animosities and misunderstandings are not the way to get things done.

Why all the small talks?

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

04:12

Trying period; burning questions; unanswered

I admit I haven't been living for myself.
What does it mean to be living for one's self?

01:37

As always, easy mac to the rescue.

Unattainable goals = Less Motivation = Lousy Grades.

Applying Accounting Concepts.
I need my 'Tunnel Vision'.

I'm in a very cranky mood these days. SO pardon me if I do anything silly in front of you.

Monday, June 02, 2008

18:53

My aim for this week:
To go for all 12 hours of school and push up my AHOS (Average Hours Of School) !
Haha.
So far, I've completed 4 out of the 12 hrs. I've got 2 days to complete the other 8 hrs!

For the first time today, I met Yuan at the bus stop!
Eggciting.

Sunday, June 01, 2008

18:54

Read between the lines, like that, you might be closer to figuring out my thoughts.

Sometimes, I may appear as though I'm hiding something from everyone. Truth is, I'm not. I just do not share my views. Silence is a virtue, and suffering in silence is a part-and-parcel of life.

That's what I've learnt.

So why be depressed over it when dawn is just around the corner?

Wait and be patient, for you'll definitely be rewarded for that silence.

02:05

We all subscribe to different theories in life. At the end of the day, you have to respect the different theories your friends subscribe to, and not force your opinion on them.

Respect, Accomodate, Support.
That's how you're meant to be as friends.